made (and lunch, as well), Mom safely in bed for her nap,
some gardening accomplished and a pile of tax paperwork
awaiting me on the low table in the living room…
…which I walked right past as I slipped into my studio
with the softly glowing certainty that this was the perfect
time to watch Bright Star. It had been waiting for me to
get to that perfect moment for the past few weeks…and
here it was. For an hour or so (I haven’t finished it yet)
I was steeped in muted light, billowing fabrics, tangled
flowers and gentle depths….dreamy.
Earlier in the day, when I pulled the heavy, dusty cosmos
from their bed in the hot sun…it was good. I saved the few
flowers and fed the greens to the goats. And the prettiness
of the delicate flowers against the pebbled outdoor shower
was worth the fetching of the camera.
But even better was the pot of flowers in front of the
golden-green fields, and my son next to me helping
me experiment with bokeh. After a few tries, this
was rather lovely to see…
….but eventually, I was able to capture…
Sometimes I forget, in the satisfaction of day-to-dayness,
and the little get-aways of novel and film…that there is
something in between….real, but with a poetic gleam. Or real,
but mysterious… like dreams. I am being pulled by my sleeping
dreams lately…falling asleep quickly, sleeping late rather often
(tho’ I had intended to start a New Habit of early rising!)…just
to see what my dreams have to say to me. The language of of
my dreams is not easy to translate, but it is
interesting to try.
So if I am slow to answer emails or even to post here
these days, it may not just be the stacks of paperwork or
the building decisions claiming my attention….I may be
spending some dreamy moments in a slightly out-of-focus
but very beautiful world.
katiebird September 22, 2010 at 5:13 am
I love that movie!!! Can’t wait to hear how you liked it…and I love your photos – Cosmos is one of my absolute favorites 🙂
...Miss...Maddie's... September 22, 2010 at 10:57 am
This dreamlike state you write of is what keeps us inspired, refreshed and ready to triumph… even if only for the moment.
The photo is beautiful.
melissa September 22, 2010 at 12:16 pm
Lots of moments are making me sigh and take very deep breaths lately…nothing much, but plain living, I guess.
Hope today has its own refreshments for you, and that you’ll tell about it because what you’ve written here is just beautiful. 🙂
Heather September 22, 2010 at 8:49 pm
I love the phrase a “slightly out-of-focus but very beautiful world”!
PS – I referenced your autumnal post in my latest blog post – I fell in love with the porch swing photo.
Rosamund September 24, 2010 at 11:44 am
Beautiful and so well said! We should all be doing more of that which is really listening to the interal connected to the eternal. Bright Star is a favorite. I could watch it a million times over just for the beauty of it. Peace, Blessings – Rosamund.
Virginia Mallon-Ackermann September 27, 2010 at 8:10 pm
The golden flowers are dreamy! Thanks for sharing them with us as well as the tip. I never heard of the term bokeh. If only I could do that in real life without the camera. How much nicer life would be with a little blurr in the background. 🙂
Wild Somerset Child September 29, 2010 at 7:58 pm
Lesley, I would never have found your blog if you hadn’t left a comment on mine; and I am so grateful on both counts – your words to me and then discovering your dreamy blog. I too had never heard of ‘bokeh’ though I think I once tried to produce what the term seems to convey; now I put it down to camera shake, which I know it isn’t. Or laziness with using automatic digital settings. Thanks again; I’m following your blog from now on. A.
kerrie October 3, 2010 at 3:40 am
loveliness…dreamy…you have captured here in the quiet. Bright Star I have wanted to buy, but cannot find on blue ray and don’t want to spend $20 for DVD. So have to wait.