2009

Interlude

How much I appreciate the beautiful and thoughtful birthday wishes you left for me in the past several days! I have read them many a time and marvel over the loving, creative people who read my blog….thank you, truly.

There have been grand visions and difficult decisions swirling around me in the days leading up to my birthday, while the day itself was simple….and sweet….and quiet. Since then, the rain has been falling and I have felt suspended in a place between the past and the surprising future, between dreams and action…between the turning inwards of Winter and the opening up of Spring….

An interlude….which I have tried to describe, in part, in the newsletter that I sent out this evening.

March 14, 2009
Perhaps this won’t be a surprise to you, as it was to me,
but the additional sweet responsibility of having my mother
join our household and helping her through her
days has been more of a challenge than I
anticipated.

I have never been good at multi-tasking and have
found the jobs of mother/wife/teacher/business
woman more than enough to handle over the years. And
as I began to prepare for Spring shows, it became clear to me
that the new job of being an attentive daughter each
and every day, all the day long, just couldn’t
flow with all the work in my studio and on
the computer and away at shows.

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Something had to give and it would seem that it will be
Small Meadow Press….for a time. My mom is living with us
while she waits for an apartment to open up in the wonderful
retirement community she has been looking forward
to moving to for some time. So until she moves there,
or until my holiday shows begin next October, I will
be taking a hiatus from business-as-usual.

I don’t know exactly how I will be proceeding through
this change….I will be filling the Rummage Sale orders
for the next week, changing pages and information
on my website and posting about this on my blog.
I am hopeful that I will be able to work on designs
for the future and also find windows of time to
work on one-of-a-kind pieces that I haven’t been
able to get to in years past. If this comes to fruition,
I will send out a newsletter to let you know.

In the meantime, I am here to answer any questions
that you may have, and will continue to feel grateful
every day for the appreciation and support I have
received over the years from everyone.

It was a hard decision to come to, but I knew
it was the right one the very next day as I felt
the generous space of minutes and hours open up…
to enjoy a long and leisurely breakfast on
the porch with my mother and plan sweet outings
and trips for her. I want to enjoy her
enjoying life for as long as we are
able.

The rain is supposed to fall for another few days, time
to gather strength and inspiration for what feels like the New Year
which has begun for me.

One in which I will still be writing and sharing here.

Home Festivals

We sat on the porch tonight for the first time since Autumn. The evening air was mild, the trees bare-limbed, the sky crossed with pastel clouds and flocks of geese and little bats…the mosquitoes biting. Truly, it was so lovely, but those mosquitoes surprised me!As we sat and watched the sky and chatted, I felt grateful for the light and soft breezes, but relieved that the trees were still bare…for I haven’t quite caught up with myself and the weeks just past. I need a few more days to chronicle our small home festivals and imagine tucking away our Winter life before we meet the Spring and our last home festival of the season….

 

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A dear son’s birthday, Valentines Day….and in just a few days…my own birthday. A very special one, for I will turn 50 on Wednesday. Back in January, when my deario asked me how I wanted to honor such a milestone, sharing a few of his own lovely ideas, it came to me in a flash that I wanted only to get to England again. From that moment, nothing else tempted, and we decided that we would accomplish it-tho’ we haven’t come into inheritances or won the lottery since the last time we hoped to manage it-I just knew it would be possible this time, this year.

And so it seems to be.

We have a friend that we will stay with, we found affordable plane tickets after much research, we have arranged for my brothers to take care of my mom, we found a window of time between college and summer jobs and gigs so that we will be together in the land I love and haven’t set foot upon in twenty-five years.

It is a very powerful thing, this turning 50 years old. It has been bringing clearness and focus to me, as it approaches, in little ways and big. I will have more to share about that in the days to come.

Oh no, but it can make you brave!

 

And as I am finished “wrapping up” the last of our Winter days, here is a photo that matches today, on the cusp of Spring.